Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Atypical children

My children are not typical children for many reasons. Although I won't get into their specific designator a, it is often enough to use their names to describe behaviors, and everyone understands what we mean. Because of who they are, they experience the world in ways that are different from the average child; therefore, the average child also experiences my children in ways that are different than how they experience their typical peers. While I this is easy to reconcile in theory, it is not as easy to do in practical terms. I wish that I was the perfect father who knows exactly how to make the world perfect for my children, but I am not that father. In fact, my shortcomings are regularly pointed out to me, which makes me feel quite inadequate. This might be normal, but it is also quite personal, and for that reason, I fear that I am somehow neglecting some fundamental needs that my children have. All of this because I want them to be safe and happy, and because I know how cruel the world can be to those who do not naturally fit the mold of normal. I do not want my kids to become the victims of cruelty at the hands of their peers. 

Thursday, March 26, 2015

Susan Sarandon

Susan Sarandon reminds me of my mother. She"s a little crazy, but classy in a way that reflects a life that has been fully lived, mistakes and all. Plus, Susan Sarandon plays characters who are tough, and my mom was pretty tough, all the way to the end. I sure do miss her. 

Sunday, March 22, 2015

Balance

I have a very difficult time finding the balance between extremes. I am, by nature, an introvert. That can make life rather tough sometimes. I also do not respond well to very many things. I am sorry for all of my outbursts and wildly inexplicable states.