Realize

I've come to realize that I'm not a very good dad. I'm grumpy and I even turn downright mean. That's got to suck for my kids. I don't want them to grow up thinking that I was such a terrible father. I love them, but it's hard. Fatherhood is difficult. I can see why my dad pretty much walked away. Fatherhood is fucking complicated. Its not like the movies where everything just works out. Four year olds don't care if you have a bad day. Seven year old don't care if you've had a bad day.