Atypical children

My children are not typical children for many reasons. Although I won't get into their specific designator a, it is often enough to use their names to describe behaviors, and everyone understands what we mean. Because of who they are, they experience the world in ways that are different from the average child; therefore, the average child also experiences my children in ways that are different than how they experience their typical peers. While I this is easy to reconcile in theory, it is not as easy to do in practical terms. I wish that I was the perfect father who knows exactly how to make the world perfect for my children, but I am not that father. In fact, my shortcomings are regularly pointed out to me, which makes me feel quite inadequate. This might be normal, but it is also quite personal, and for that reason, I fear that I am somehow neglecting some fundamental needs that my children have. All of this because I want them to be safe and happy, and because I know how cruel the world can be to those who do not naturally fit the mold of normal. I do not want my kids to become the victims of cruelty at the hands of their peers. 

Susan Sarandon

Susan Sarandon reminds me of my mother. She"s a little crazy, but classy in a way that reflects a life that has been fully lived, mistakes and all. Plus, Susan Sarandon plays characters who are tough, and my mom was pretty tough, all the way to the end. I sure do miss her. 

Balance

I have a very difficult time finding the balance between extremes. I am, by nature, an introvert. That can make life rather tough sometimes. I also do not respond well to very many things. I am sorry for all of my outbursts and wildly inexplicable states. 

One great thing is that, when I'm dead and gone, my books with all if my notes scribbled in the margins will remain. Whether anyone has second-hand stories about me, or whether I am completely forgotten, my children, my grandchildren, and hopefully my great-grandchildren will know what I read and what I thought about those works. In those pages they will get to know a man that no one else has ever had the privrledge of knowing. 

So today Julian tells me, "Look daddy, my skin is so soft."  Problem is, he wasn't touching his leg. 

Oddly, I keep getting advertisements popping up web pages wanting me to meet Jewish singles. I have no problem with Jews (although I am an atheist), but the whole dating thing is just annoying. I find it hilarious that I am being targeted as being religious. I find it ridiculous that I am being targeted as single. 

I prefer to look at the world, and ever-increasingly the universe, through the lense of curiosity and inquiry. Dogma has no place in my life. Surely, dogma only finds comfort with the spineless and feeble-minded. Stay away from  it at all costs; instead, search and search with the understanding that you will merely come to greater understanding as your questions become more profound. Embrace the small surprises that you come across through your research, and never falter in your constant love of knowledge about the world.